Saturday, December 20, 2014
Day 354:
Simply another of December.
Just another typical day in December.
I wonder how its like to live my life without caring about others.
I can do everything I want, my style & I won't even stand in other people's way.
But sadly, I am too soft - hearted.
To a point where, I had to care.
I cried for no reason because I have no idea how to speak my mind out.
Sometimes, I feel like I am myself when I am around with my besties or even my clique in school.
Other times, when I am with the whole class, I feel as if I have two sides of me.
One trying to fit into the class just so they won't judge me for who I am.
Another one, is ruining myself in class where they think I am not a good person.
I have regretted changing school or even making those decisions where I shouldn't have made them in the first place.
But what's the point of regretting now, when I should have think about this in the first place before I do anything else.
Also,
If it wasn't for me being busybody, I guess, I won't stuck between him & my cousin.
Things wouldn't be like this if I didn't be a busybody.
Nobody knows what I feel at all.
As much as I wanna share my thoughts out, I don't know how to.
Even if I did, they will mis-interpret what I meant.
Life is tough.
I realized that, I can't be pleasing everyone at all.
I drag people who weren't involved into my own personal problem.
I am being so selfish.
I am also being someone who I shouldn't be at all.
Advices are given to me. I took them.
But I ended up confusing myself.
I need a break from all of these.
I don't wanna talk about all of these anymore.
Everytime I do, the same problems just keep arising.
Yu Ting, please change for the better.
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